I hate being jealous!!! This emotion is the very worst for me. It is the ultimate in victim energy. It feels like poison ivy popping out all over the place. Worse, it makes me feel vulnerable and exposed.
No enlightenment here at the moment that's for sure.
The Redhead got the better of me and I told Sean exactly how I felt about the situation. There was no high level energy speaking words of encouragement. This was pure unadulterated redheaded emotion. Yet the words I spoke weren't hateful. I didn't call him any names. I didn't curse the day I met him. I didn't beg him to love me back. I was upset and yelling when I said this but, I told him exactly how I felt about his actions and how he was treating me. I told him about the good man I see behind what's really going on and I told him I was still glad for the experience. I also told him that when he was ready to stop wallowing around in the dark and choose the light, to show up at my door.
No, can't say I'm really sorry for my actions. Just don't like jealousy to be the trigger of my emotions.
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