Ugh, I’ve been so preoccupied with all the stuff going on
that I’m forgetting to focus on the good stuff....
So today we are going to celebrate some aspect of our
redheaded selves. What is it for
you? I’d really like to know.
For me, it’s my stubborn streak. It has been something that
almost everyone in my life has told me was my worst trait, but that’s usually
because they were on the receiving end of it and I usually don’t back down. My coaching colleagues have told me that I should
spin it more positively and call it tenacity.
No, in this case, a spade needs to be called a spade. I’m stubborn and
I’m proud of it.
Stubbornness comes up in me when I feel I’m right or feel I
need to be heard. It comes up when I’m
too tired or hurt to continue on a given path.
For me, it feels like the picture I posted with this blog. (I drew that,
by the way and it is my personal power symbol)
I’m celebrating stubbornness today because I realized that
it is my stubborn intent to keep my apartment and not move back to WV that gets
me over my own pride and into the pawn shop to make sure my rent gets
paid. I’ve decided that it doesn’t
matter what kind of hell I have to walk through to get it done just so long as
I get it done honestly.
It is my stubborn streak that’s also got me so mad at the
moment I could spit nails. I’m mad
because I'm taking alot of criticism from the people around me. They all think they are helping me. You know what… I’m tired of it. At first I was really hurt that people didn’t
get it and support me and stroke my ego and tell me how wonderful and brave I
was. Ok, I get that they all love me and want what's best for me however, they don't have to walk around in my skin and feel the things I feel or think the things I think. Here’s the thing. I am the master of my life and I will make the
decisions on how to run my life. If I
fail, then that will be on me. But I
don’t have any intention of failing.
I’ll walk this road for as long as it takes and fight every dragon that
comes my way. I may not win every battle
but I swear I’ll die trying. Everyone
else has their own dragons to fight.
Today my stubborn streak gives me strength!!!! Get ready for the energy to shift now!!
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