Doors Where There Were Only Brick Walls

Redheads, when you are pursuing your big dream,  help comes from the places you least expect it.   This past month has been a month of miracles for me. 

The first, was when I was able to scrape together the money to get the oil changed in my car.  Now, my mechanic has done every oil change and major repair on my car since I bought it brand new in 2000.  I have the deepest respect for him because he is a man of honor. He is a Carolina boy, a true southern gentleman. All his female clients love him because he treats them like favorite nieces, and sisters.  He has never done a repair on my car that was not completely necessary.  And even then, he has researched prices from various vendors before he quotes the job.  I trust him to say the least, so when he came out of the garage and said that I needed new front brakes, I knew he wasn’t kidding.  I didn’t have the money for those brakes, but he insisted that he do the repair.  He said it was a serious safety hazard. His exact words were, “Tammy, those brakes won’t last a week  and no tellin’ when they’ll go out.”  His next words were, “I know you’re doing the best you can, so you can pay me when you have the money.” 

I was humbled to the point of tears..  This man trusts me. He’s willing to help me at a sacrifice to himself. 

Next miracle,  was a card from my mom with a  check tucked inside with a note saying she wished she could do more. That check was the difference between my salary and my bills this month. I hate taking money from my parents. My feeling is that I’m an adult I should be sending them money to ease their burdens. Mind you, my parents are not destitute, but they worked hard for the money they saved and now that they are retired, they should have the chance to enjoy the fruit of their labor.

The miracles keep coming, Next is a new friend of mine named Helen.  We met several months ago in a coaching circle we are both part of. She was my coach at the time and lives in CA so we have only ever talked on the phone. At one point we were discussing my business ideas and she suggested printing fliers. I had to admit that at that time I didn’t  even have the money to buy ink for my printer.  Several days later, this woman who has never laid eyes on me sent me $20 for ink.  Really??? A stranger believes in me and my dream!!!  You have no idea how empowering that is. 

Since then, we were paired again in the circle and we have become great friends. She cheers for me and offers support. We share views, coaching techniques, trials and laughs.  She is so positive, even in the midst of her own challenges on her way to her own big dream.  That $20 she sent me for ink now prints out handouts for a seminar series, I wrote and facilitate at the church where I hang out.  (Yeah, that’s another miracle)

Then the most recent miracle is that marketing efforts are beginning to pay off. Just a trickle but…  It’s validating never the less.

Today, I am standing in the light knowing that I am on the brink of the biggest success I’ve ever had. This is really cool stuff!!!  I have no more fear. It has been replaced with this deep “knowing.”   This  knowing has given me a confidence that I’ve never had before.  You see, I’ve always been good at making people believe that I was confident, but never really felt it.  Now, I don’t need to fake it because the confidence is built on absolute passion.  Actually, I’m not just standing in the light; I am positively glowing with it from the inside out!